Sparrowhawk Ramblings

Well I killed an innocent.  I'm feeling rather guilty even though I struck her down in the heat of battle.  What else was I to do?  She had just downed the Cleric and clobbered me over the head with her stick, the room was still full of enemies, and this she-banshee would have downed me too had I not acted.  What was I to do? 

Was it my fault that it  just happened to be the best shot I had ever made and gone straight through her chest, into her heart and out the other side of her body!  It was just a lucky arrow that killed her, that's all, I really did not mean for it to end that way.  Why then is there a nagging tug in my head that screams 'you've done the wrong thing'.

Bloody stupid bitch for making me feel that way.  She was hanging around with a bunch of evil thugs anyway, bent on the destruction of the city.  So she may not have been evil....but she was evil by association, so that makes her a partner in their crimes....sort of.

Oh very well I suppose I must make amends somehow.  Maybe I should find her family and offer some sort of compensation for her death.  I'm not above charity.  I did give 400gp to the Church of Shelyn to assist with the re-building of her temple.  Maybe I'll offer the family some gold, that should do the trick.

I can imagine that conversation going well, "Hello friends, my name is Sparrowhawk.  You may have heard of me, I'm known as the Fair Maid of Korvosa.  Well the other day we just happened to be at the hospital when we decided to go on a killing spree.   No we didn't kill the 'patients' just the evil doctors and the psycho bitches guarding them.   During this slaughter, your wife/daughter /mother/lover/pet or whatever decided to pitch in and attack us as well.

                You say she's not the type to attack people.  Well she sure was pretty handy with that stick she was carrying.  She did a fair bit of damage too.  I am sorry to say that in defence of my companions I was required to use the maximum force necessary under my authority.  I shot her with my bow, shot her through the heart in fact, pretty damn good shot too I must say.

Now, now don't get all angry, I was only doing my duty and she was hanging around with a bunch of evil maniacs.  But despite this I do feel terrible about killing your wife/daughter /mother/lover/pet so here is this bag of 20gp in compensation.   You could buy yourself quite a bit with that, maybe even a new wife/daughter /mother/lover/pet.

Ok you aren't look very happy now.  That's unfortunate.  O look at the time, I better rush, got plenty to do.  You have a great day now and thanks for listening to me I do feel so much better.  Bye."

I wonder what I should do.....